Where’s Charnaye?

*pops into frame* She’s baaaaaacccckkkkkkkkkk! *insert TikTok sound*

Hi Friends!I know it’s been a while. Please don’t hurt me. A lot has been going on since my last post. A lot of learning. A lot of growing. Figuring things out. A lot of new discoveries. A lot of working too. But this post isn’t going to talk about work though. At least… not about my job. I’ll explain soon. I promise I won’t take too much of your time. There’s a lot to catch up on friends, so let’s get started!

I think I mentioned in a previous post that I struggled with mental health. I may have even mentioned that I was in the process of getting some testing done. I can’t remember if I was ever specific or if I ever told you all the full story. So here it goes.

Ever since I was a little girl, I struggled with sitting still and talking a lot. I was kind of a busybody. I always moved around and I could never sit still. Especially when it came to doing things that I found boring or things that were repetitive. My family called it only child syndrome. That explanation didn’t hold up so well when I became an older sister. As I grew up and entered into high school, I started to notice that my mind was never really quiet. I was always thinking and processing information. The sleeping issues that I had were magnified. With the program I was in at that time I had extra papers and tests that I had to do on top of the normal work. I found it difficult to start anything. I found myself constantly procrastinating and I knew I was doing it, but I couldn’t stop.

The issues only magnified over the years. They just got worse. I also realized that I was becoming more forgetful and I didn’t pay attention as well as I used to. As I started this author journey, I started to realize that this was causing a lot of issues for me. I decided that it was time to officially get tested and see what was going on. I went and got testing done on January 2nd. I got my results on February 13, 2025. The results were exactly what I thought they were as far as diagnosis. ADHD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.

The testing process was long. It took a few hours and it was very in depth I have to say. Ter were some fill in the blanks, sentence completions, and a lot of computer tests and questions. I was surprised by the detailed analysis they could get from my answers. I was surprised also by how accurate everything was. There were things in the report that I never could put a name to but once I read and researched it, it made sense.

There is a sense of relief in having these results. Especially after these last few years. I felt so often like I was crazy or that I was broken. I am neither of those things. It just urns out hat my brain works a little differently. As it was said to me, I am neurodivergent. If I am honest though, hearing it be put so plainly to me like that made me emotional. It took me almost 30 years to figure out exactly what was going on and make sense of it. Especially knowing there were signs early on in my life. These past few months have been a rollercoaster in my emotions and figuring out what my next steps.

I know that this post has been getting very long and you are probably asking what the point of this post is. In a way, I am reaching out for community. I pride myself on wanting to build a community but I am realizing that I need to join and reach out to new connections. If anyone has any advice or support groups for people with ADHD especially for those who are new to this. I am on Facebook, Instagram and Threads. If anyone can help me out here, it would be great.

I want to thank you for reading this long and more emotional post. Thank you for letting me open up about something so near and dear to me. Thank you for giving me the space to do this. I appreciate it so much. It means the absolute world to me.

I will leave you with this piece of advice, if you feel something is wrong, go get checked and go get testing done. It can really change your life.

To everyone, I pray that you all be blessed and healthy. I pray you all have peace.

Be safe. Take care of yourselves.

Protect each other.